I guess this fits since it’s almost the end of the year and the beginning of the new one. Not only that, but it’s also the end of the semester and the beginning of a new one… so hopefully I’ll have some good insight going into the next year.
I guess the transition from high school into college wasn’t a big one. For some reason it didn’t feel that big… and still doesn’t feel that big. I guess… I just don’t feel the big change that much, but it definitely should hit me harder. I mean 1/8 of my college years have already passed… and I definitely didn’t do as well as I should have. I mean I keep blaming it on the fact I had classes I didn’t want and shit like that, but I definitely should get my act together for the next semester and kick some fucking ass. 2 B-s, 1 B, and 2 B+s… definitely not the grades that I want… so let’s step it up.
Then there’s people. Yeah you learn a lot about people going into college. Who’s got your back, who doesn’t. Who you get closer to, and who you grow apart from. The interesting thing about people is that they’re unpredictable. It makes it all the more fun learning about them and seeing who they really are. The most unexpected people can become your closest friends, and the ones that you thought, could become something you’ve never thought.
The Nova Nation has brought me closer to interesting people. Definitely the crowd I thought I’d be in, but definitely want to expand upon that next year. I got my core friends down… so now time to expand out and maybe chill with some other people. I got my pothead/druggie/smoker friends & my Asian bros… which are who all I really chill with, but let’s see if we could expand this circle.
Church is a biggie for college. Gotta shape up and do my part. So lazy though… but that shouldn’t be a factor. Gotta stop being lukewarm and start being back to the person I’ve been… or at least close to that. It’s true, it’s harder for the leaders to get back especially because of the “drop” that you feel, but I gotta suck it up and just accept it.
Also with a look back, we look back at bad habits and good habits that I’ve had. Mostly the bad ones… cause I feel like that’s all I’ve had. Gotta stop with the impulsive buying, but I think I’m done with that now… and gotta fix my sleeping schedule. My sleeping schedule has become so bad that I’ve been waking up at 2 or 3 every morning… while sleeping at 11 or 12. Then staying up until about 3 in the afternoon and passing out till 6… then repeating that cycle all over again. Probably will get worse when I get back into college, but we’ll see. Gotta start hitting the gym again once I go back cause I’m real out of shape. I started running and doing the usual routine at home so hopefully I could keep that up again.
Also I’m fixing another bad habit. 2 weeks strong and I got asked to smoke today, but I declined. I still have been toking up though… but mostly to try and go to sleep.
